Baru beberapa hari lalu, "Kamu terlihat berbeda, Eve. Kamu tidak biasanya seperti ini. Ada yang berubah. Sesuatu berubah. Dan itu membuatmu jadi terlihat lebih buruk. What's wrong, Eve?"

Kalimat itu terucap dari mulut seorang teman yang hampir setahun tidak bertemu. Dan dia sudah menjadi orang ke lima, atau ke enam yang bicara seperti itu pada saya. Apakah saya seberubah itu?

"Come on! Look at your face! Look at your eyes!! Look at your smile!! You are definitely a dead man--ups, woman--walking!!" Serunya lagi sambil menunjuk ke display kamera digital miliknya setelah beberapa kali kami mengambil foto bersama, ketika aku memprotes penilaiannya itu. Yeah well, people change. Everything change.

Memangnya ini salah saya kalo beberapa waktu terakhir ini, ada pertanyaan2 yang menggelayut di otak saya? Potongan2 kejadian yang tak pernah saya lihat, tapi selalu menghantui? Imajinasi2 yang menyakitkan? Keinginan2 tak tertahan untuk melepaskan diri dari rasa sakit?

Shut!! I can't get this song out of my head!!

What's she like when she turns around to kiss you goodnight?
When she wakes up in the morning by your side?
What's she like?

What's she like?
The yellow moon or the deep blue of the sea?
Do you feel the same way you did when it was me?
What's she like?

Oh I've been holding on
I've been holding on for far too long
I've been holding on
I've been holding on much too long.

What's she like when you're making love and stars are in her eyes?
When you're looking for the answers in her smile?
What's she like?

Oh I've been holding on
I've been holding on for far too long
I've been holding on
I've been holding on much too long
Too long.

I never knew I could love somebody the way I loved you
I never thought I'd be the broken-hearted
Well, nothing hurts you like the truth.

So what's she like when she turns to you, when push comes to shove?
When she whispers in your ear that she's in love?
What's she like?

Oh I've been holding on
I've been holding on for far too long
I've been holding on
I've been holding on much too long
So what's she like?